People

I am learning more and more everyday that one thing in life that I will probaby never understand is people. Why do people pay the blame game when the person they should be blaming is themself? Why do people bottle things up until they explode? Why is communication so difficult for people?

I wish we as human being could talk openly about our feelings and that we never got to the point of being so upset that we explode. This is one thing about human nature that frustrates me the most. We don't communicate properly. I try so hard to communicate with those around me but it is just not something that is returned.

I miss my good friends for this reason. We aroundstood eachother. Communication was something that we valued. I wish they weren't so far away...so many of them have moved away and that saddens me. Very few of the people here value true relationships. Relationships of communication.

I wish I knew what to do. I keep telling myself that I am only here until the middle of March, but I don't want that to be my focus. I want to celebrate my last 5 months of undergrad and take advantage of every moment...it is just a lot harder then I thought it would be. Why is life never easy....sigh.